[two hundred, thirteen]
Today was my last day with the kids at camp. I miss them already. Just a short one for this post, but there is a boy at camp who I really have gotten close to. Don't get me wrong, I'm close to them all, but this boy is just comfortable with me and I calm him down. He gave me a hug today, telling me that he is going to miss me. He told me a couple weeks ago and that I'm beautiful. He wasn't making a move, he is completely blind, and hasn't seen anything in his entire life, and it meant a lot to me that he said that. Today he hugged me, and gave me a quick kiss on the cheek. He said sorry right after, and I hugged him again and said it was okay. I'm going to miss him so much, just because his little smiling face has taught me to believe in so much more than I already do. To be positive, and to smile everyday because it is so important to just keep your head up, and I told him that everyday. "I want to see your smiling face" and there he was, brightly shining smile up at me. I fell in love with his smile, and I am going to miss him so much.
love,
Jess :[
Thursday, August 4, 2011
four for toonie luck tuesday
[two hundred, twelve]
ADVICE FOR MEN:
Since I've had a little experience in the department of relationships, I thought I'd write my wisdom down. Where else better than in a place where my readers are dominantly female (and, well, myself only counted in that count). So here goes nothing! Maybe just relationship adive in general, so, scratch the first heading:
ADVICE FOR PEOPLE WHO WANT TO BE IN LOVE:
I guess that's a little better.
Gifts don't have to be expensive or gorgeous or unique, they can be anything, and they don't need to be given on any special occaision. Flowers go both ways sometimes. Say thank you. If you're not interesting, respectful, fun, uplifting, positive, passionate, talkative, excited, or any other expected mood, then they won't be. Do what they want sometimes. You are right and you're wrong, there's never a constant. Know what you want, and believe in it strongly. Everyone likes a tiger, gentle and strong.
Just some things I guess. I don't demand rings, but if it's a commitment you better act like it.
So anyways, that's just be rambling about thoughts on relationships and things, and advice I guess? I'm terrible at advice. Just do what you like and be nice about it, don't have anything holding you back, take risks because you never know what's going to happen, who's out there, and who you'll meet. You could meet the love of your life in a Starbucks.
love, always,
Jess :]
ADVICE FOR MEN:
Since I've had a little experience in the department of relationships, I thought I'd write my wisdom down. Where else better than in a place where my readers are dominantly female (and, well, myself only counted in that count). So here goes nothing! Maybe just relationship adive in general, so, scratch the first heading:
ADVICE FOR PEOPLE WHO WANT TO BE IN LOVE:
I guess that's a little better.
Gifts don't have to be expensive or gorgeous or unique, they can be anything, and they don't need to be given on any special occaision. Flowers go both ways sometimes. Say thank you. If you're not interesting, respectful, fun, uplifting, positive, passionate, talkative, excited, or any other expected mood, then they won't be. Do what they want sometimes. You are right and you're wrong, there's never a constant. Know what you want, and believe in it strongly. Everyone likes a tiger, gentle and strong.
Just some things I guess. I don't demand rings, but if it's a commitment you better act like it.
So anyways, that's just be rambling about thoughts on relationships and things, and advice I guess? I'm terrible at advice. Just do what you like and be nice about it, don't have anything holding you back, take risks because you never know what's going to happen, who's out there, and who you'll meet. You could meet the love of your life in a Starbucks.
love, always,
Jess :]
five for monday MONDAY monday!
[two hundred, twelve]
I was teaching a boy at camp how to understand puns yesterday, and he made up the BEST one:
I was trying to write about pigs, but they were stuck in the pen.
I DIED. This kid is SEVEN and he thought of that all on his own! I have such faith in humanity now, I want to be the most positive, high-five-y person on the planet. Personal note to self: Read the NEW YORK TIMES everyday. It is uplifting and enriching to know you're not the only one alive in the world, you know.
I have to write a bunch of these today before my world politics exam, and I'm a little nervous but at the same time excited to just get it over with. This time tomorrow? I'm going to be still at work, but I'm going to be getting ready to go to the bank and the lcbo, and then finally, to Niagara falls! Good weekend comin' up!!
love,
Jess :]
I was teaching a boy at camp how to understand puns yesterday, and he made up the BEST one:
I was trying to write about pigs, but they were stuck in the pen.
I DIED. This kid is SEVEN and he thought of that all on his own! I have such faith in humanity now, I want to be the most positive, high-five-y person on the planet. Personal note to self: Read the NEW YORK TIMES everyday. It is uplifting and enriching to know you're not the only one alive in the world, you know.
I have to write a bunch of these today before my world politics exam, and I'm a little nervous but at the same time excited to just get it over with. This time tomorrow? I'm going to be still at work, but I'm going to be getting ready to go to the bank and the lcbo, and then finally, to Niagara falls! Good weekend comin' up!!
love,
Jess :]
five for sunday
[two hundred, eleven]
Wow I've been writing this for a long time. I feel like I don't put my own thoughts and feelings into this anymore. Have I mentioned that I have lost all of my music off of my computer so I am scared to connect my ipod in case it deletes everything, so come the time of my finishing work and classes which is in exactly eight days, I will have a moment or two to download those programs that re-sync from my ipod, and I can once again enjoy actual music on my computer, not just the radio.
Don't get me wrong, this itunes radio business is helpful. I can't change the song and knowing that consciously makes me want to listen to whatever song is actually on. I can keep it on and not have to worry about shuffle, and also the embarassing songs on my itunes that I would skip over or the instrumental ones are cut out. It's like it knows my preferences. You'd think my physical ipod would have that, ha-ha.
This post is for sunday, because I've been exhausted into an oblivion so much this week that there hasn't even been a short moment to pop onto the computer. I feel spread thin, very thin, and as of tonight I will be even thinner (I wish).
Take care,
Jess :]
Wow I've been writing this for a long time. I feel like I don't put my own thoughts and feelings into this anymore. Have I mentioned that I have lost all of my music off of my computer so I am scared to connect my ipod in case it deletes everything, so come the time of my finishing work and classes which is in exactly eight days, I will have a moment or two to download those programs that re-sync from my ipod, and I can once again enjoy actual music on my computer, not just the radio.
Don't get me wrong, this itunes radio business is helpful. I can't change the song and knowing that consciously makes me want to listen to whatever song is actually on. I can keep it on and not have to worry about shuffle, and also the embarassing songs on my itunes that I would skip over or the instrumental ones are cut out. It's like it knows my preferences. You'd think my physical ipod would have that, ha-ha.
This post is for sunday, because I've been exhausted into an oblivion so much this week that there hasn't even been a short moment to pop onto the computer. I feel spread thin, very thin, and as of tonight I will be even thinner (I wish).
Take care,
Jess :]
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
I can't remember where I'm supposed to be at
[two hundred, eleven]
PLEASE STOP WITH YOUR ACCUSING EYES, I WANT TO WATCH DIRTY DANCING, DO YOU KNOW THAT SONG IS AN RNB NOW? MAN, COME ON, I JUST WANT A CUPCAKE FINGERS TOO.
Cupcake fingers?
I'm so tired, and I need to actually go and study now. I miss my blog, I miss talking to it like it listens. I know that nobody reads it but me, and I miss hugging the blog everyday, telling it to take care or to cheers. If there was any way that I could continue tonight I would, I would, really, but I think I'm going to have to go and study. Studying is like being drowned, it's like when you stand in the middle of a lake and dunk your head, just a dip, and then let all the breathing out of your lungs and you sit there thinking man I could stand up but I can't because I have to be here, drowning myself.
Is that just me? I think it's the lonely wheezes, they tell me to jump in the lake.
I am not a schizo, I don't have actual voices in my head, if there are any voices in my head they belong to my Great Grandpa and Neville Longbottom, so, I dunno, you deduce whatever you like, I'm going to stand in the lake now, to take a dip.
Study my bum off.
love,
Jess :]
PLEASE STOP WITH YOUR ACCUSING EYES, I WANT TO WATCH DIRTY DANCING, DO YOU KNOW THAT SONG IS AN RNB NOW? MAN, COME ON, I JUST WANT A CUPCAKE FINGERS TOO.
Cupcake fingers?
I'm so tired, and I need to actually go and study now. I miss my blog, I miss talking to it like it listens. I know that nobody reads it but me, and I miss hugging the blog everyday, telling it to take care or to cheers. If there was any way that I could continue tonight I would, I would, really, but I think I'm going to have to go and study. Studying is like being drowned, it's like when you stand in the middle of a lake and dunk your head, just a dip, and then let all the breathing out of your lungs and you sit there thinking man I could stand up but I can't because I have to be here, drowning myself.
Is that just me? I think it's the lonely wheezes, they tell me to jump in the lake.
I am not a schizo, I don't have actual voices in my head, if there are any voices in my head they belong to my Great Grandpa and Neville Longbottom, so, I dunno, you deduce whatever you like, I'm going to stand in the lake now, to take a dip.
Study my bum off.
love,
Jess :]
TEN FOR ME
[two hundred, ten]
The waves right, they were slow, and they were cold and things but really man did you blame them when they started? It's like getting lost in a place where you love, the places that you love are the best places because the times that you are there wait, I got lost. I mean if you look out at the sun, and you wear the sunglasses, and you jump in and run with the tennis ballers and the frog jumpin' leaps, I wish that people could see it. What, please focus on me, please read me like a book like the sunset, the sunset and the pink sky. Do you see it? It's up there and things right and I looked and laughed a lot, because I'm down here and it's up there, and I miss it.
focus: thoughts of a lonely searcher
Jess
The waves right, they were slow, and they were cold and things but really man did you blame them when they started? It's like getting lost in a place where you love, the places that you love are the best places because the times that you are there wait, I got lost. I mean if you look out at the sun, and you wear the sunglasses, and you jump in and run with the tennis ballers and the frog jumpin' leaps, I wish that people could see it. What, please focus on me, please read me like a book like the sunset, the sunset and the pink sky. Do you see it? It's up there and things right and I looked and laughed a lot, because I'm down here and it's up there, and I miss it.
focus: thoughts of a lonely searcher
Jess
six to zero in one day..
[two hundred, nine]
What are you expecting really? I hate when people don't understand the things that you say. Like I usually try to say things, but they never come out properly, and my thoughts don't make sense. That happens in essays, then I get a crap mark...
I have an exam tomorrow, and I'm terrified, and I'm kind of stressed out why I'm writing six or seven blogs all today, maybe I should put this off a bit more... I feel bad for not being caught up, but I've been so freakin' busy with work and school and the beach, that I've had to put it off.
I had the best weekend ever.
love,
Jess :]
What are you expecting really? I hate when people don't understand the things that you say. Like I usually try to say things, but they never come out properly, and my thoughts don't make sense. That happens in essays, then I get a crap mark...
I have an exam tomorrow, and I'm terrified, and I'm kind of stressed out why I'm writing six or seven blogs all today, maybe I should put this off a bit more... I feel bad for not being caught up, but I've been so freakin' busy with work and school and the beach, that I've had to put it off.
I had the best weekend ever.
love,
Jess :]
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